Recently, I have been experiencing some God-sized dreams. Each day, my heart breaks more and more for the children in other countries who are in need of food, shelter, care, and most of all love; to know of the love of Christ Jesus. And with each and every day, my heart cries more deeply, Lord, here I am; send me.
A couple of years ago, I hear about a book called “Kisses from Katie.” Though I am still on chapter three, simply the beginning of her words inspired me and resonated deeply within my heart. She talked about giving up on the security and comfortability of living a life going through the motions, and following God’s call for her life in Uganda.
This year, I began my freshman year of college at Vanderbilt University in Nashville, Tennessee. To be honest, it was a dream school that I thought beyond my reach and it is a blessing that I am able to be here. I did not think much about coming here until God laid the opportunity before me, and I am incredibly grateful. The vulnerability, intentionality, and encouragement that I have received here for my brothers and sisters in Christ has been more than I could have ever hoped for.
I have some big dreams. I want to do the World Race (an 11 month mission’s trip in 11 different countries). I want to be a camp counselor. I want to get married and have kids. I want to work on the Council for Exceptional Children. But most of all, I want to serve the Lord, because I believe that that is the only way I will ever truly be content and live out my purpose in this life.
With my course planning for next semester imminent, I have been thinking a lot about my major. Currently, I am a special education major, but feel called to take up a major in elementary education and sociology. That is a bold statement for me to say, called to. In my mind, fears spin of what if this changes or what if I am just hearing my own desires, but a quiet voice inside me says, but what if? What if this is what God has called me to? What if I take a leap of blind faith and see where the Lord leads me?
The reason I desire to be an elementary education major is that I would also need a second major. I would absolutely love to teach kids in different countries and serve them with love. With each day, I grow more eager to be with the kids that I have not even yet met. And so I began to research ways I could teach possibly through a sponsorship program. I love the idea of meeting people’s needs and showing them the love of Christ Jesus through that; hence the major in sociology.
Pretty soon, I remembered the Amazima Ministries. My church’s woman’s ministry had read Kisses from Katie earlier this year, and so it was fresh in my mind. Shortly after, I signed up to sponsor a child and realized that their US base is in Franklin, Tennessee. How could it be that I am in the very place where Katie (the founder of Amazima ministries) grew up and continued to shape and dedicate her life towards the Lord.
I do not know all of answers yet, and am not sure where this heart’s desire will take me, but I pray that whatever I do and wherever I go, I may serve the Lord.
“But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.” ~ Joshua 24:15