I never planned on rushing. I had this image in my mind of girls partying, sexual assaults, heavy drinking, and superficiality. Even now, it is difficult for me to break that mold. But about a month after Panhellenic Preview Day had passed, and my friend told me she had recently decided to rush, I felt a little tug in my heart. Fear of missing out on something good was there, but something deeper as well. A little voice in my heart kept saying, try it out, there is something good here. And so after a lot of thinking, conversations, and most importantly, tons of prayer, I decided to formally register for Greek Life. This is the story of my Greek Life Journey (in pieces).
This evening was the Panhellenic Recruitment 101 Meeting. I had talked to some Christian girls in sororities, a wonderful Gamma Chi, my discipler, and especially to God in prayer, but I was still pretty nervous. Because I did not have a Gamma Chi group (since I registered later), I tagged onto one with some friends. The whole Student Life Center (SLC) was filled with circles of girls sorted by Gamma Chi groups. In all honesty, one of my fears about Greek Life is the superficiality. I see girls wearing lots of makeup and immodest clothing, constantly looking down at their phones, and my initial reaction is to judge and retreat, to hide myself from the rejection I am afraid I will receive, to look negatively upon myself for not fitting in, to be prideful about how modest and “good I am,” and to quit and run back to my Christian friends. But in the midst of this I was reminded that God so deeply loves and cares for each and every girl in that room. He took time to carefully create and design each of them. He died for them. I think part of the reason I feel that God is calling me to Greek Life is to get to know some of the people He created, the ones that he loves, and hear their stories. I believe that he wants me to show love to them and tell them about how much goodness, hope, life, purpose, and love is found in Him, and along the way discover that more deeply for myself. With all of my heart, I want to turn from what I believe to be God’s will and be comfortable. But haven’t I been praying for an uncomfortable life where I am always leaning on and relying upon the Father. What an answer to my prayers. I love the song Oceans by Hillsong United that says: “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.” I am uncertain of what rush will look like, fearful of the cutting process, and filled with uncertainty, but trusting that God is good and faithful, and that where he guides, he will provide. Cling to His promises that He loves me and knows what is best for me as a good and wonderful Father. He promises many times to never leave me nor forsake me at every moment, and is kind and good, so very good.